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My Inspiration
If there was music playing along to this page it would be Inspiration by Chicago, but for copyright reasons I haven't included that here. If you have it available, play it, it explains much better than I ever could what I am trying to say here.
I am not really a very ambitious person, and before I met Wendy I was content (though not exactly happy) to just take each day as it came without any real thought for the future. I never really believed that I would find the woman of my dreams, or that if I did, that she would even so much as glance at someone like me. Therefore I never planned or saved for the future.
I had many pastimes to fill up my time, but none really satisfied me deep down, they were only ways to fill up the idle hours of my days. I hardly ever actually achieved anything though, I would spend hours playing a computer game instead of learning something or creating anything lasting.
All that changed when we met on that fateful day on November 15th, 1997. I suddenly saw a whole new bright future opening up before me. I had found one of the most special people I have ever met, and she soon became a huge part of my life, together we made so much more than the sum of our parts. We could do so much more as a team, and we supported and inspired each other to do things we would never have attempted otherwise.
I began so many projects to not only make life more pleasant for the both of us, but to make more of myself so that I could be a more viable option for US Immigration and also prospective employers. I also dearly wanted to make Wendy proud of me and my achievements, so far I hadn't risen very far in life, and I wanted that to change. I felt part of a family, albeit a distanced one, and I didn't want to let them down by being less than I could be.
Even with the miles we have between us, Wendy still inspires and supports me in so many ways, I couldn't begin to list them here. Foremost in my mind was always finding a way to bring us physically closer together though. No matter how much we loved, cared for and support each other, we both knew that we were much happier together than we were apart.
It was difficult sometimes to accept that it might take many months before that could happen, but there was no way I was going to give up on any chance there may have been. We are so very lucky to have found each other, some people spend years searching for a partner, and though things didn't turn out the way we had hoped, I am not giving up on her as a friend just because of a mere 3500 miles separating us. And that's saying something for somebody who puts things off as much as I do.
I often had so much energy I just didn't know where to direct it, I so much wanted to be with Wendy, but eventually I had to accept that would never happen. But through all this, one constant remains, Wendy inspires me to try, and provides both the incentive and support that I need.
Wendy, if You are reading this I would like to thank You for making such a huge difference to my life and for inspiring me to greater things. Nothing is more important to me than your happiness, and for us to remain very close friends at least for the rest of our days, whatever that takes. I love and care for You deeply, and I am here for You always...
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